June 28, 2004 - 01:03
last morning in north carolina i stayed up eating my fingers and being paranoid and at six i went on a walk and i had to move all of the suitcases blocking the door and it was cold and wet out and i was shivering from the newly focusless anxiety (dark) and my shoes were soaked through and there was a weasel in the yard next door and those things are fucking weird looking. i walked to the cemetery, almost, but then i leaned against a tree and turned around.
the secret to staying up a really, really long time is lots of coke, soda, eyedrops, and some food. some gross unhealthy food so you won't remember that staying up three days in a row isn't healthy, or healthy food because if you're not sleeping at least you're eating well.
i think i will go to sleep soon though..