July 29, 2004 - 01:24
i don't like leaving the house anymore. tagging along places with my mother and sister is depressing and i quit walking around in the yard or going off of the back porch when i follow the dog out. i don't like uncovering my window and i when i do i don't leave it that way for very long.
i hate tv because if you decide to watch something then you have to write down when it comes on and watch it every time, and if you decided to tape something so you can watch it later you have to sit in front of the tv the entire time. this is probably only me because it bothers me to have holes in my tv-watching routine or to leave the room when i'm taping something, because maybe the vcr will self-destruct and i'll miss a stupid movie.
i was thinking of moving to greatestjournal but remembered that every time an anonymous internet person comments on an entry i abandon the diary soon after or erase it all and start over. i don't like direct social interaction. i write about things in my diary instead of saying them to people. i like going out in public (or used to?) but panic if anyone talks to me. i wait several days to reply to e-mails/comments so i'm detached enough to figure out what to write. except i'll reply to things immediately if i'm about to go to sleep,..which is just another way of being detached.