November 19, 2004 - 04:38
i figured out why i don't like modest mouse's new cd: the music changed because it's being marketed to a different audience. america or the entire world instead of the midwest.
my mother is an asshole. this paragraph was longer in my head, but there is no point elaborating.
after graduation nikki got drunk all the time and slept with four random guys. she talked about sex all the time before, rarely dated, and didn't even masturbate. so it makes sense now.
sandra b. updated! this should really be at the top of the entry. well, nothing for two months and it's about time. it's inspired me to get some cough syrup and caffiene pills tomorrow, if i stay awake long enough to stay up artificially. well, which i take first depends on which i'm in the mood for. i think i'd rather be awake for the caffiene. or maybe not. rebekah used to do dxm all the time and says the legendary pink dots are fantastic on it.
sandra b. has such an awesome life, even if she's fucked up. working, shopping, going to shows, drinking, doing drugs, and sleeping in her car. i'll do that if things ever seem real again. maybe i just need to knock myself out of it.
after thinking about the music i listen to after hearing this overly sentimental kid's music collection made of (guy who loves the pumpkins' sappy love songs), i decided i don't like rock all that much. a couple bands, but most of what i listen to is really slow or old and even the rock bands i listen to aren't the screaming/moshing kind. except the pumpkins, because goth kids are losers. i'm joking, sort of.
i can't fall asleep, and i decided i'm walking to my dad's today, going shopping, then spending a miserable day trying to fall asleep on his floor. whenever i actually need sleep i can't get it.
i'm sort of on a diet which i've screwed up already (day two). it's more a diet in defining what i'm going to eat everyday than something planned out to make me lose weight. that's what the puking is for.
i tried out bulimia for a couple of days (after i wasn't hungry for a few days, ate nothing, felt great, and then started eating again for no reason) but i'm not serious enough about anything to stick with it. i guess that's why i'm not in school or eating through a tube. damn my short attention span.
i'm going to make a fotopages post now: http://sealingwax.fotopages.com