December 30, 2004 - 08:42
i hate it not being definite and it is my fault it isn't, so my current new year's eve plans are running up to a liquor store with my dad and going over to his apartment tomorrow night (he's going to charleston), drinking alone and watching movies. i'm really too lonely to have friends i'm afraid to call or expect to see on the holidays and one day i'm going to go away without telling them where i'm moving. eh, i don't want to bother them.
and when i am not making depressing but appropriate holiday plans, i am playing the sims 2, going online like now, cleaning, taping and glueing up things in the sunroom. and in a while i am going to take a shower and change my clothes for the first time in a week.